BrokenHearted Girl-Beyonce

You're everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still, you live inside of me, so tell me how is that?
You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you're the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
'Cause I can't erase
The times that you hurt me and put tears on my face
And even now, while I hate you, it pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up til' now I've always been afraid
that you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out

You say you've got the most respect for me
But, sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still, you're in my heart
But you're the only one
And yes, there are times when I hate
you, but I don't complain
'Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh, but now I don't hate you
I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you, babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you, babe
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart
is free to spread my wings and fly
away, away with you....

I don't wanna be without my baby
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without my baby
I don't wanna play that part
I know that I love you, but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kind of way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
I don't wanna play the broken-hearted girl
No, no, no broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

John Mayer, Michael Buble, and Alicia Keys

Their songs give me strength to move on....:))
yeah....the lyrics are so exactly ME...
as if they can read my mind....and turn them into beautiful songs...:P

Love will find away-OST LION KING

In a perfect world
One we've never known
We would never need to face the world alone

They can have the world
We'll create our own
I may not be brave or strong or smart
But somewhere in my secret heart

I know
Love will find a way
Anywhere I go
I'm home
If you are there beside me

Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I was so afraid
Now I realize
Love is never wrong
And so it never dies

There's a perfect world
Shining in your eyes
And if only they could feel it too
The happiness I feel with you

They'd know
Love will find a way
Anywhere we go
We're home
If we are there together

Like dark turning into day
Somehow we'll come through
Now that I've found you
Love will find a way

I know love will find a way

Aku Dirimu Dirinya-KAHITNA

Tak ada
Yang harus kita sesali
Semua indah
Yang pernah kita alami

Meskipun terbatas
Dan tak mungkin
Terikat janji abadi

Aku dirimu dirinya
Tak akan pernah mengerti
Tentang suratan

Aku dirimu dirinya
Tak resah bila sadari
Cinta takkan salah

Andai waktu bisa kita putar kembali
Jalinan cerita mungkin tak begini

Meskipun terbatas
Saling pandang
Dan tak akan lebih lagi

Aku menangis

2 events dalam 2 hari yang membuat air mata ini mengalir....

Aku menangis melepas kepergian seorang sahabat...
Tapi aku bahagia karena dia akan melangkah menuju kehidupannya yang baru...
Doaku untukkmu,sahabat!!

Aku menangis karena aku harus melepas sebuah rasa yg selama ini kurasa
Tapi aku percaya bahwa ini yang terbaik untuk kita berdua
Betul begt,cowo?? We are just friends nothing more nothing less...
BBF always!!!

berhrnti berharap

kayanya memank aku harus berhenti berharap jauh sebelum hari ini...
aku relakan lagi dirimu untuknya...
walau aku harus menangis lagi...
karena aku tahu cinta itu tak bisa dipaksakan....
aku berhenti berharap...
semoga aku sanggup melaluinya!!!
terima kasih untuk sebuah kejujuranmu....:))

Ooh jadi begt....

jadi begt toh....ya sudahlah!!! (pdhl blm tentu itu buat gue ya!!!)
karena begt juga kok yang aku rasain...gak lebih gak kurang...
emank begini lebih enak...
ga ada beban...
lebih bebas.....
tapi...u're always be my BBF!!! :)

I'm sorry, my kids!!!

I was a naughty kid when I was in KG....
now I know the feeling that my teachers had last time...
I guess this is my KARMA that I need to face...
Actually I never want to be a 'bad' teacher....BUT at one time I need to be strict to my kidos...I need to discipline them...
My kids, I'm sorry...But I did that because I love u...and I want u all to be good....:))

Ni zai na li???

Ni zai na li???
kok ga ada tanda2 kehidupan sich....jangan2 beneran dia seharian berhibernasi....
ya sudahlah....enjoy hibernating, cowo!!!!

I could have danced all nite

At this moment I enjoy "I could hv dance all nite" Glee version...
I guess that what I want to do now as my BBF has come back in town...:))
yipppie....there will be him to accompany me and brighten up my hectic day!!!!

I could have danced all night!
I could have danced all night!
And still have begged for more.
I could have spread my wings
And done a thousand things I've never done before.
I'll never know What made it so exciting.
Why all at once my heart took flight.
I only know when he
Began to dance with me.
I could have danced, danced danced all night!

(Again)

Once again I have to let a friend goes away from this place...
I have to let a good friend goes to grab her future...
I'm gonna miss u...a friendly, talented, kind, sweet and pretty friend...
I wish u really best of luck in ur new life...
Hope u will always be happy!!
Thank u for the cooperation and friendship that we have!!!
I don't wanna say goodbye...BUT till we meet again, my friend!!!
May God always be with u....!!!

Just...

Just wanna say H A O X I A N G N I.....
It's so quiet without U

Upgrading my "5cm"

kayanya "5cm" gue kudu diupgrade neeh...
yg pasti "5cm" yg pertama adalah...NYELESEIN my MASTER~~
trus NABUNGGGGG buat jalan2 en beli gadget (hahahahahahahaha)
trus getting married...(menunggu adanya kesempatan!!!)
trus mo terus menulis, moto dan dipoto....WAKSSS!!!
trus yah tetap setia MENDIDIK the little ones...with love and laugh!!!

hahahahahaaha "5CM" always!!!

It's Life...

Life is always unpredictable...
everything can be changed in a second...
what I believe is that God has given equal portion to each of our life...only time will tell when it will happen...it can be today tomorrow or in next few second...
It is our duty to complete the assignment that God has given to us..no matter how impossible it is...BUT we have to believe that HE has HIS way... and HE will lead us through it...
The challenges has to happen...The lesson need to be learned...The good things need to be shared...
so...Let's ENJOY our LIFE!!! No matter what!!!!

poto poto

poto poto itu menyenangkan....
dipoto itu seru...walopun kadang keabisan gaya en gigi jadi kering...
tp ternyata moto-pun seru...bisa bikin cerita dari poto2 itu.... bisa mengabadikan moment2 indah, unik, luchu sehingga jadi satu kenangan yg bisa dibagikan dan diceritakan lagi di masa depan...
tp klo mo dipoto en moto perlu modal kamera..kamera yg agak canggihan dikit biar hasilnya bagus...tp susahnya harga kamera agak cangih itu aja cukup bikin miris kantong...
dan lagi biar bisa seru maen hasil poto2 kudu belajar maen photoshop biar bs ngedit2 poto dan hasilnya maximal....

yeah...I adore photography and I enjoy becoming d amatuer model...waks!!!

:))

klo kamu ga ada di kangenin...
klo kamu ada biasa2 aja...
dasar aneh....

U n I

How to describe this feeling???

Weird...

Sometimes I want u...

Sometimes I don't care

Sometimes I need u

Sometimes I miss u

Sometimes u're out of reach

Sometimes I don't feel anything...

Sometimes I wish u were here with me...

It's so 'messy'....

Don't know how to feel...I just see u....

Menulis....

Menulis itu bisa bikin pikiran yg buntu jadi menemukan pencerahan lagi...soalnya separo dari yg dipikirin ud dituangin diatas kertas...
Menulis itu bebas tanpa ada paksaan...(seharusnya?? tp klo harus nulis paper buat tugas??)
Menulis itu bisa buat curhat...apalagi klo ga ada yg bs diajak ngomong...
Menulis itu bisa menghasilkan duit!!!!
Menulis itu bisa mengungkapkan perasaan yang ga bisa diungkapkan secara oral....:))
Menulis itu menyenangkan....hiburan....
Menulis dan menulis...walaupun cuman satu kalimat kadang itu bisa membuat org lain terhiburrr....
Menulis...teruslah menulis....

Mencintaiku apa adanya....

29 tahun kurang 2 hari aku sudah bernapas di dunia ini...
3 negara sudah kucoba untuk menjadi tempatku hidup...
Di Indonesia, tepatnya di ibukaota JAKARTA yg super sibuk inilah aku berjuang dalam lika liku kehidupan....
Aku bersyukur bahwa selama 29 tahun aku hidup aku dipenuhi dengan berkat dan cinta...
Aku dilindungi, dicintai dan dididik sehingga aku seperti ini dalam keluarga yang bisa dibilang cukup sempurna (I always thank GOD for my family)
Aku dipertemukan dengan orang-orang yang bisa melengkapi diriku sehingga aku merasa 'lengkap' dalam kehidupan ini...
Pengalaman-pengalaman yang terjadi dalam hidupku telah menempaku menjadi orang yang lebih 'kaya' lagi....'kaya' akan pengetahuan dan pengalaman....yang walaupun sulit aku masih bisa tertawa...
Aku tahu jalanku masih panjang...banyak impianku yg msh harus ku kejar...banyak tantangan-tangan hidup yang harus kuhadapi....
Tapi aku percaya...aku tak pernah sendirian....
walaupun aku tak sempurna....tapi DIA tak pernah meninggalkanku...
DIA yang mencintaiku tanpa syarat...DIA selalu mencintaiku apa adanya...

Thank u, God to love me what I am....

Old and New

It's been like this year to year....
Reflecting back to what happened this year...and writing some hope and wishes for the new year...

This 2009 was never been easy and smooth as I hoped for...BUT this year I learned a lot...through tears, sweat, and laughter...I enjoyed every moment, every events, every thing that happened along this years....I learned a lot of things...although I might say that I wasn't a good student at all....
Well... I guess goodbye 2009....it always be a great year with lot of moments to remember....:)

2010 is around the corner...
Hope in 2010...I will finish my master degree...
I will get more experiences that develop me into a better person
I will continue dedicating myself for the little ones who always brighten my days....
I will get a luck in my love life...
I will always be happy
My family will always be happy and healthy...
Finally, I hope that I can reach my other dreams....

No matter what has happened in 2009 and will happen in 2010...what I believe is that everything will be great because God is always with us along the way....

God Bless Us, everyone!!!
Happy New Year!!!
may we have a blessed year!!!